I was standing on the curb that day. The sun was shining. Laughter and voices filled the air. High school was out for the day, and I was standing somewhere in middle space – half way between “here” and the outer extremes. I was standing on the curb, but in my mind, I was actually teetering on that curb that bright sun shiny day ready to fall with the slightest whisper. NO ONE KNEW. And the whispers came… “I could … More…
Can prayer be dangerous? Devote yourselves to prayer, keeping alert in it with an attitude of thanksgiving; ~ Colossians 4:2 NASB Depends on how you define ‘dangerous’, I think. If it is defined as ‘risky’ then it’s a resounding “YES!” If it is defined as ‘doing harm’ then it’s a resounding “YES!” I once told my pastor that after all that I had been through, after all God had taught me, that I was absolutely “along for … More…
It is a phenomenal love for God that a person has when that person, who is on the other side of world, would pray for me… a person they have never met in person. Phenomenal. And I have been overwhelmed with all the love and prayers. I haven’t had a lot of energy to respond to all the emails and texts and messages, but I have come beautifully undone in spirit with every single one of them. I have good … More…
The garden. We have all been in the garden, haven’t we? Jesus has been. That place where we are burdened about something heavy. Burdened so heavily that we sometimes can’t even tell which end is up? Jesus knows that burden… ours in the ‘garden’ and the one that was His that day in the Garden of Gethsemane. We relate best to that very human side of Jesus. But I have experienced the Truth that as we relate to His very … More…
The last several days (years) have been hard. So I’m doing something very different here. I’ve felt God leading me to do this for a while now… I’m answering as I feel this is the time. Let me invite you into the inner parts of my soul. Conversations within myself … with the flesh and the enemy in the attack and then… God’s voice. Ever. So. Clear. This is a conversation… a war of words at times… as I live … More…
Everyone is talking about their word. Words are powerful. I remember when I was young I would look in the mirror and see “ugly”, “disgust”, “unliked”, “unloved” – you might have a word like that too. Both men and women have words for themselves. And the thing is those words, those feelings as they are, wax and wane, and even change depending on what we are going through. Those very things I thought of myself at a young age carried into adulthood. … More…
Depression. Oh the pain of heart pain. None to be equaled. Depression is a very difficult subject to understand, to discuss, to live with, to handle, to be around … Do you ever stop and think about what in your life is a comfort that shouldn’t be? Is there something that consumes your thoughts in such a way that you know it isn’t healthy or productive but you go there anyway? BEWARE! That’s a trap. Beware because it can enslave … More…
May those who read this, that are experiencing now or have ever experienced any type of bondage to sex or abuse, find the light at the end of the tunnel; it can be overcome and removed from your life. This may be one of the hardest things in my life to write about. From the responses I’ve received from so many about my writings, I’d guess that people might be thinking ‘How can you order the hardness level when … More…
Although my husband, Everett, and I had struggled financially early in our marriage, after years of struggle we came to a very good place. We were blessed abundantly… but the truth is that we didn’t fully know the true meaning of ‘abundance’ until we had nothing. MOVING TO A NEW LIFE: THE SEASON OF CHANGE In June of 2008 we moved to another state, another life. This was a step of faith for us. Everett’s job in his field … More…
